Fate, I’d trust you with my life. [ She says it immediately, without hesitation. ] I’d trust you with the lives of my family.
You’d make an amazing spy, and if you seriously wanted to be one, I’d support you. It was just—I was trying to make a stupid joke to diffuse the tension. About how you don’t listen to me, and, ah. Possible inappropriate workplace relations.
[ Not that Beleth hasn’t banged her agents before, but a one time thing she doesn’t mention is...different. Than this. ]
[Oh. He wishes that she wouldn't say such things, trusting him with her life. She'd said it before in the Fade when they were trapped there. His fears about no one trusting him, that he would never deserve it, that he'd just be abandoned again and again--
She said she trusted him then. She does now. It's nice and awful.]
It wasn't a bad joke. Suppose I'm just feeling off about this whole House of Asgard thing.
I don’t blame you. I...don’t think I can kick them out on that alone, especially without the other leaders. But...I’ll keep an eye on them.
I think that’s the worst part of this job. I don’t get to choose who I work with. Sometimes, necessity means dealing with unpleasant people who have things I want. It’s funny, though, because they usually feel the same way about working with me.
Most people aren't thrilled to work with an elf, especially one of us tree hugging Dalish, right? [He chuckles quietly, but he definitely sounds tired.]
I think we're also just in a position of getting as much help as possible, even if we'd like it to be otherwise. Even if people like Loki are just looking for an opportunity of power. I wasn't too much better when I first joined.
[ This is an introspection she hasn’t attempted before. Her reasons for joining the Inquisition, and how different she was, now. And she was different. Though it’s hard to say if it’s for the better, or worse. No— ]
I was incredibly rude. I don’t think many people realized just how awful some of the things I thought had been, but. You did. I was incredibly rude to you, and I didn’t even bother to cover it up.
[ It’s the first time she’s admitted that their vitriolic relationship back then might have not been 100% his fault. Probably more like 90%. ]
If we can change, I suppose it’s possible that he can.
[ That sums up her feelings on the entire thing quite nicely. ]
You’re probably right. I’ll see what I can learn about him, then see what the others think when they recover from their whole...thing. It would’ve been easier if you had hired them.
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You’d make an amazing spy, and if you seriously wanted to be one, I’d support you. It was just—I was trying to make a stupid joke to diffuse the tension. About how you don’t listen to me, and, ah. Possible inappropriate workplace relations.
[ Not that Beleth hasn’t banged her agents before, but a one time thing she doesn’t mention is...different. Than this. ]
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She said she trusted him then. She does now. It's nice and awful.]
It wasn't a bad joke. Suppose I'm just feeling off about this whole House of Asgard thing.
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I think that’s the worst part of this job. I don’t get to choose who I work with. Sometimes, necessity means dealing with unpleasant people who have things I want. It’s funny, though, because they usually feel the same way about working with me.
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I think we're also just in a position of getting as much help as possible, even if we'd like it to be otherwise. Even if people like Loki are just looking for an opportunity of power. I wasn't too much better when I first joined.
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[ This is an introspection she hasn’t attempted before. Her reasons for joining the Inquisition, and how different she was, now. And she was different. Though it’s hard to say if it’s for the better, or worse. No— ]
I was incredibly rude. I don’t think many people realized just how awful some of the things I thought had been, but. You did. I was incredibly rude to you, and I didn’t even bother to cover it up.
[ It’s the first time she’s admitted that their vitriolic relationship back then might have not been 100% his fault. Probably more like 90%. ]
If we can change, I suppose it’s possible that he can.
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...I wasn't any better, honestly. I thought I knew so much better than you or anyone else.
[But he's definitely going to remember this conversation.]
Oh, no. I think he'll stay a selfish asshole looking for power, but he might be useful to keep around.
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[ That sums up her feelings on the entire thing quite nicely. ]
You’re probably right. I’ll see what I can learn about him, then see what the others think when they recover from their whole...thing. It would’ve been easier if you had hired them.